Internal Conflict

Fist landing...

Plates flying...

Voices raising...

Shot firing...

The internal conflict is rising...

I sit wondering what I should be doing.

I pray for God to lead to the goal.

I listen to spiritual leaders who He has put in my path.

I feel my heart being tug one way and the other.

Yet left with contradictory futures.

Right & Wrong...

Left & Right...

Hot & Cold...

Yes & No...

The internal conflict continues...

I am running my test.

I am compiling the data.

I am asking the questions.

I am studying my graphs.

Yet answers still evades me.

Peace hidden...

Paths overgrown...

Life emptied...

Passions lost...

The internal conflict climaxes...

I must find the solutions.

I need the Godly response.

I require the break, allowing listening.

I want it to end.

Yet time goes on.

Compromises made...

Agreements met...

Sins confessed...

Forgiveness given..

The internal conflict ends...