I Am The Reason...

I have never felt true happiness...

I have never had a smile that won't fail...

I have never experience childlike joy...

I have never understood cheerful demeanor...

So, I searched for the reason why...

I searched my actions...

I searched my circumstances...

I searched the world...

Until, I found the answers...

I found the data...

I found the solution...

I found my cure...

Now, I understand my affliction...

I understand my addiction...

I understand the problem...

I understand the answer...

My entire life is self-inflicted...

The pain and suffering is because of me...

I push away everything that leads to joy...

I believe its better that way...