I miss....

I miss the smell of your brown hair,
I miss looking within your brown eyes,
I miss being able to kiss you whenever I want no matter where we are,
I miss saying "that is my girl" when someone mentions you,
I miss watching you as you walk,
I miss saying I miss you without a "you shouldn't" being within your eyes,
I miss being introdued as your boyfriend instead of best friend or a FWB,
I miss being protective because I am your boyfriend and not just some friend,
I miss being jealous because I don't want to lose you instead of because I want you,
But most of all I just miss being with you!

You Are My Everything!

You are my Life,
You are my heart,
You are my brain,
You are my fun,
You are my love,
You are my happiness,
You are my EVERYTHING!

Let You Go?!

I'm soory I am so attached to someone that isn't so attached to me,
I'm sorry I am too stupid to realize that you are gone...
I need to let you go,
but I can't let you go...
I tried and failed but...
Don't worry about me..
Even though I can't let you go,
Move on and be happy...
PLEASE?!

IDK

I don't know if I can do this....
I don't know if I can look at you and not be worry about whats yet to come.....
Worry about the day you leave...
The day you realize that you can do and find a lot better then me....
When you find out I wasnt worth anything the time, the kisses, the trust.....
The day you realize that you don't deserve to have an.........
Superjealous, short fuse, undeserving, untrustworthy, ugly, uncommunicated, terrible boyfriend....
I'm sorry I wasted your time....
I'm sorry I'm wasting your time now....
And I'm sorry I'm gonna keep wasting your time until the day you get torn away from me.....
And I want you to know no matter what happens to us no matter what you find no matter where we are or how far apart we are....
If you need anything tell me....
Even if you just need someone to yell and cuzz at I will always be there for you.....
And if for any reason you do decide to come back my door will be ready for you to walk through......
I love you....
Always have always will.....

Do you believe now?

Though you say you believe me,
When I say I love you,
I can see you don't,
It is the truth.....
I lied about it before,
I am aware that you think i can again,
But I can't!
Thats why it took a month for me to admit it,
Because I didn't want to say it if.....
I didn't mean it.
So tell me the truth....
Do you believe me now?
Samantha Souriyavong....
I Love You!

Why Don't You Stop?

Why don't you stop?
Stop being a fuckin whore?
Stop trying to be the center of attention?
Stop acting like something your not?
Don't you see we are nothing?
We will never be anything?
Stop trying to get something you can't have?
I'm done,
You don't have a chance anymore,
It's over,So fuck you,I found someone else!

I'm Sorry...

I can't believe I allowed myself to fail again,
I can't believe I allowed myself to fail you,
I can't believe I allowed myself to fail at everything,
I'm sorry for failing,
I'm sorry for everything I didn't give you that you wanted,
I'm sorry I couldn'rt help you like I promised,
I'm sorry I failed you,
I'm sorry for EVERYTHING,
And now that I lost you I can admit,
That my biggest thing I am sorry for is....
I'm sorry I gave you hope an happiness,
Then took it away!

I can see now!

I can see now......

I can see why I piss you off so easily.....

I can see why you think we will fail....

I can see why i fail you...

But its not anything about you....

I can see why if not everyone........

Most of the people in school hates me....

All this is because I'm turning into my dad....

Baby,

I'm sorry I'm turning into an ass......

I'll try to stop....

But if I fail....

You need to leave me....

Before I hurt you again!

Am I still a best friend?

Am I still a best friend?
Even though I'm no longer just a friend?
Was I ever....
Honestly your best friend?
Or did you just talk to me like i was?
Am I still a best friend?
Even though you don't........
Can't tell me everything?
Am I still a best friend?
Even if I'm overprotected....
Or overjealous?

Is there a way?

Is there not a way?
A way to make you see?
To make you see that you are.......
And always will be the ONLY girl for me?
A way to make you know that my love for you is....
UNCONDICTIONAL?
A way to make the feelings of doubt and disbelief....
That I know you have when I say it?
Is there such a way?
Please let me know....
Because I need to prove it to you!

You are........I am?

You are beautiful....
You are nice............
You are great..........
You are unbelievable...
How did I get you???
I am ugly................
I am an ass.............
I am unworthly of anything....
I am not even a good boyfriend....
So why do you keep me around???
You are smart.......
You can get a lot better.....
You deserve a lot better....
But yet you decide to stay with me......
I am stupid....
I can't find anyone better than you....
I don't deserve even the whore at the bottom of the list.......
But there is one thing I have that you don't!!!
I have the ablity to know the truth about myself like....
I know I am not great, cute, or even smart......
But I also know that as long as you are happy....
I will be too....
And I will give anything to make you happy.....
Even if that means I have to let you go......
Or die to let you make your happiness......
As long as you are happy so am I........
I LOVE YOU!!!

No matter what you say/do/think.....

I will always be here for you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always love you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always only want you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always be protective toward you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
Don't you get it baby?
No matter what you say/do/think,
I WILL NEVER THINK OF YOU DIFFERENTLY!

Prediction Note: 2

Leg dude,
You're not gonna find out who this is but I have something to tell you. I see that you make Samantha very happy....and I will be selfish to try to ruin that. I do love her and if I find out that you even ever think about hurting her I will kill you, it won't be with a gun/knife either I will be sure to make you feel the pain and suffering wishing I would just end it.....GOT IT! DON'T HURT HER, BE GOOD TO HER! Or I will fix it.
I will be
Watching!

You Said

You said you were done with him....
You said you are tired of him....
You said he is nothing....
You said you gave up on him....
But I see you aren't...
I see the way you look at him...
I see the way you talk to him....
I see the way you talk about him....
I know you aren't done with him....
So why are you going to keep suffering....
Why are you going to keep lieing to not only me.....
But yourself.....
Why don't you do what I know is gonna happen?

I Miss You

I miss you.....

I miss seeing you smile....

I miss being able to touch you....

I miss feeling your hand in mine....

I miss the times we talked....

I miss the kissing....

I miss the hugging...

I miss being able to say I Love You....

I miss hearing your voice in my head.....

I miss being able to tell you anything....

I miss telling you everything....

I miss you telling me the truth plus more.....

What happened to us?

How did we end up like this?

Why does god put me through all this shit?

I miss you...

But I can't have you....

I miss you....

So I will wait,

Laying in my bed alone...

For you...

And you....

ONLY!

The True Me?

You say you love me...

And I believe you do....

I just don't see why....

I don't see the cute, smart, self-controled boy you see.....

I don't believe the sweet, honest, nice boyfriend exist....

What I do see is an ugly, stupid boy with as much self-control as an alcoholic in a bar in free beer Tuesday....

What i do believe is an overprotecting, overjealous, untrustworthy boyfriend exist....

But somehow you don't see this.....

I don't know why,Its the true me.....

H-U-R-T

You say you need to get hurt....

One last time....

You need to get hurt,

To make us be an us like before.....

BUT....

Baby I will live with the nights without you.....

The days i can't hold you....

The thoughts and desires I can't fulfill....

I will be okay with them if it means....

I don't have to see you hurt again.....

Baby I helped this far....

The puzzle is almost complete.....

Don't make the puzzle far apart....

AGAIN!!!

Prediction Note: 1

Samantha,

I am sorry about being an ass earlier when you told me that we are gonna have to be on pause for a little while, but i honestly didn't mean to say what I said and how I said it......and i knew that if I said what i wanted you wouldn't listen. But I was wrong you and leg dude seem to be very happy together and perfect so I will leave you two before I mess something up....I am going to Europe to leave with a friend......I don't know her exact address but I'm keeping my cellphone and number because I am going to send my mom the money to pay for it.....if you ever need ANYTHING give me a call and I do mean anything.

Love always but obiviously hated,

Willis Morgan

P.S. please be careful with leg dude.....I don't trust him!

STOP!!!!!!!!!

Stop!

Stop....thinking you did something wrong,

Stop....feeling stupid for believing,

Stop....wondering,

Just STOP!!!!

It wasn't your fault......

It wasn't my fault......

It isn't neither of our fault....

Whose fault it is.......is his......

He allow you to believe when he knew it wasn't true......

He let you wonder if you could be......

He let you fell like you are wrong.....

So stop blaming yourself.....

Stop thinking it was wrong......

Because baby you were right.....

He was wrong.....

He was stupid......

He is who to blame.......

Baby.........

He Is The Reason.....

Lemons???

If life suppose to give you lemons.....
Then why have i got my lemons....
All i got from life is salt....
From my tears and blood that was spilt....
And can you do with salt.....
I want my fuckin' lemons......

I Love You!!!!!!!

You asked me how i knew i was in love with you......
When you asked i told you i just know.....
Well now i KNOW without a doubt that i am in fact in love with you.....
Because for every second i am without you i hurt........
I don't just hurt emotionally i hurt pyshically......
I hurt to point of no return with every memory and every thought....
That goes by.....
I know i love you because i would do anything to get you back......
I would say anything......
I KNOW I LOVE YOU.........
Even if your gone forever.

Confuse???

What do you do....
When the person you love leaves you......
And you want her back......
And you want to ask for her back.....
But you know what she will say???
Do you just sit and watch her walk away.....
Allowing your heart to hurt and slow to a stop???
Or do you ask her already knowing the answer????

Why Don't I Listen???

I told myself not to get too attached......

I told myself not to hurt.......

I told myself not to cry......

I told myself lots of things........

If only I listened to myself maybe

I wouldn't be lost.

I wouldn't be confused.

I wouldn't be hurt.

But most of all maybe I wouldn't be gone.

The End!

I always knew it was too good to be true..........

I always knew you would leave me because of someone else.......

I just didn't know you would leave so soon............

But I saw it coming from the moment I lie eye on you.........

I was tring hard to make it not..............

But considing what just happened I guess its another failure to add to the list.........

:'<

Before You!!!

I was insane....
I was a mess...
I was a freak...
I was stupid....
I was not who I used to be....
Until you came into my life...

Without

Life without you,

Is like.....

Coffee without cafiene,

POINTLESS!!!!!!

My sight without your beauty,

Is like.........

Chocolate without sugar,

I don't need it!!!

ISS

I miss you
Baby, Fuck the fights....
Fuck her and him
Lets be together for as long as
life will allow us.....


A day can't be a day without the sun,
A night can't be a night without the moon,
A sandwich can't be a sandwich without bread,
Just like.......
My life can't be a life without you in it,
My love cant be true without you to be it,
My sanity can't be in existance without you to keep it there!!!




I can't stop thinking of you no matter what i do you are in my mind so here i am in Fucking Gay Ass ISS thinking of you wishing we were together again!!!!

Endless Hall

I see me getting closer to you,
But I feel like I'm inone of those.....
Never ending halls in the movies,
With me on one side and on the other side.....
Instead of a door it is you and I'm running and
Running trying to get to you so I
Can touch the beautiful soft skin
I have came so familar with,
So I can create diamonds with the pressure between our lips,
So I can look deep into your beautiful brown eyes that make me forget all
The problems and people on planet Earth
Except us!!!!!!!!

Through it all!!!

Through all the cuts,
Through all the bruises,
Through all the blood,
Through all the hate,
Through all the pain,
Through all the death,
Through all the bites,
Through all the slaps,
Through all the hits,
Through all of it,
You still find a way to lighten my day!!!!

Regret????

If I left today.........
Would Regret??????
Regret saying you like me,
Regret liking me,
Regret going out with me,
Regret being my friend,
Regret the kisses,
Regret the hugs,
Regret the touching,
Regret the talking,
Regret the promises made,
Regret the secrets told,
Regret and of IT????
I hope you won't
Because I won't.

For You!

You dont understand,you wont understand,
How could you when,
I dont myself,
All i know is...........
You keep me happy,
When i am mad.......
I think of you to be glad,
When i am depress.....
I think of you to become joyful,
You are my life,
I want you forever and always,
I want you by my side when i sleep,
I want your hand in mine when i walk,
I want your voice in my head when i drive,
I want your beauty in every dream.........

Death And Crying

There is no need to cry for death...
It is just a part of life...
Some die so others will live...
So as you can tell there is NO need to cry for the dead...
It is degrading...
It is wasteful...
It is stupid...
There is no need for it...

Death

Death waits for no one!!!
Death will come for those who doesn't want him!!!
Death comes for those who fear him!!!
There is no escape from Death!!!
So you should just lay back and wait for him to come for you!!!
What you say join me in the wait???

W.I.L.L.I.S

Willis
Is a
Lazy
Loser
In
Socks

Needle Plus Fire

Needle + Fire= FUN
Needle + Fire= BLOOD
Needle + Fire= PAIN
Needle + Fire= HATE

Your Beauty

In my dreams i see you,
In school i see you
In the store i see you
In the town i see you
Why can i not get away???
When i close my eyes i see you
Why do you haunt me with your beauty???
Why do i see you every where i go???
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
GET OUT OF IT!!!
GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!
Stop haunting my every awaking move!!!
BUT;
Everytime i see you smile i forget my problems
Everytime you talk i get lost
Everytime i think of you i get happy
Everytime you are sad i fell helpless
Everytime your mad i get frustrated
Why do i fell like this???
Why can't i find myself away from you???

Why???

Why am i still alive???
All i do is cause pain to those around!!!
Why can't i leave this life???
It is all WE need to get through!!!
Why do i have to live through this HELLhole we can a life???
This world would be a better place!!!
Why are my cuts not deep enough to cause pain???
It would let all my pain go!!!
Why does it have to be so FUCKING boring & sucky.

Stereotype

What is a Prep???
A prep is anyone or anything
That thinks they are
Better than anyone else!!!
What is a poser???
A poser is someone
Who acts like someone
They are not to impress
Someone else!!!
What is an emo???
An emo is someone who
Is overly emotional
Altrough most can hide it pretty well.

My Purpose

Every cut is slow & painful
Every pill is tasty & addicting
Every rope is forcefull & strong
Everythings ends in death
So why not make my now???
If,
Everybody got a reason,
Then what is my???
Why,
Don't i take my life now
As i write???
What,
Is my purpose in this
SHITTY world???
Do,
I have the power to
End all my pain
&
Misery???
Do,
I have a purpose???
YES,
I do, my purpose is 2
Help others when i can't
Even help myself.

Would You.....

Would you cry if i committed suicide???
Would you care if i died???
What would you do if i became seriously ill???
DON'T LIE!!!
I know the truth you wouldn't cry,
You'll be happy!!!
You won't cry if i died,
You'll throw a party
Don't try in ingore the truth,
Because it will come back to haunt you,
Until the day you die!!!!

The Truth!!!

Everyone around me believe they have the worst life...
But little do they know the TRUTH!!!
They don't know EVRYthing i have done...
Little do they know or care about the pain i been through...
They have no ideal how close to death i had came...
They know i don't cry but what they don't know is that it isn't because i don't want to but because i CAN'T!!!
They don't know what i have lived through...
THEY ARE ALL SELFISH!!!
They think about their selfs and their problems...
They act like life is a game that they are losing...
But they don't know i have already lost...
After all of this it is leaving me asking wh y???
Why me???
Why are they so FUCKING selfish...
Why don't they care to talk to me or even ask what the HELL is wrong with me???
I should end it all with one last cut but
If i end will all those i care about????

Cut!!!

Some cut for fun
Some cut for blood
Some cut for tears
Some cut the pain
Some cut to end it all
I cut for them all
Plus more!!!

Do You Not See???

Do you not see how much i love you??????

Do you not see how important you are to me??????

Do you not see how much i want to be with you????

Because if i didn't i wouldn't try so hard to make you see it......

See how much i love you......

How much i care....

How important you are to me......

The Best Day Of My Life!!!!

I am thinking....................

Thinking about the day my life switch from the hellish nightmare

To the heavenly dream

The day i gained a lot

But lost very little

The day i admitted not only to myself

But also to GOD that i haven't gave up just yet that i do have a little speck of hope

The day that my life came from depressing

To joyful

What day is this????

The day is January 22, 2009

The day we become an us!!!