Every Night I Lie In Bed....

Every night I lie in bed......
Wishing I still have you....
Wishing I was not such an ass...
Wishing I did not hurt you....
Wishing I had another chance to make things right....
Every night I lie in bed....
Looking at the pile of razors calling my name...
Looking at the handgun at the foot of my bed waiting for me to pull the trigger....
Looking at the endless amount of drugs wanting me to finish them off....
Looking at the list of deaths on my wall wondering which one I would choice....
Every night I lie in my bed...
Wanting you...
Wanting another chance...
Wanting you to believe me when I say "I'm sorry"...
Wanting you to be happy....
Every night I lie in bed awake waiting......
Waiting for my time to end......
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