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I don't know if I can do this....
I don't know if I can look at you and not be worry about whats yet to come.....
Worry about the day you leave...
The day you realize that you can do and find a lot better then me....
When you find out I wasnt worth anything the time, the kisses, the trust.....
The day you realize that you don't deserve to have an.........
Superjealous, short fuse, undeserving, untrustworthy, ugly, uncommunicated, terrible boyfriend....
I'm sorry I wasted your time....
I'm sorry I'm wasting your time now....
And I'm sorry I'm gonna keep wasting your time until the day you get torn away from me.....
And I want you to know no matter what happens to us no matter what you find no matter where we are or how far apart we are....
If you need anything tell me....
Even if you just need someone to yell and cuzz at I will always be there for you.....
And if for any reason you do decide to come back my door will be ready for you to walk through......
I love you....
Always have always will.....

Do you believe now?

Though you say you believe me,
When I say I love you,
I can see you don't,
It is the truth.....
I lied about it before,
I am aware that you think i can again,
But I can't!
Thats why it took a month for me to admit it,
Because I didn't want to say it if.....
I didn't mean it.
So tell me the truth....
Do you believe me now?
Samantha Souriyavong....
I Love You!

Why Don't You Stop?

Why don't you stop?
Stop being a fuckin whore?
Stop trying to be the center of attention?
Stop acting like something your not?
Don't you see we are nothing?
We will never be anything?
Stop trying to get something you can't have?
I'm done,
You don't have a chance anymore,
It's over,So fuck you,I found someone else!

I'm Sorry...

I can't believe I allowed myself to fail again,
I can't believe I allowed myself to fail you,
I can't believe I allowed myself to fail at everything,
I'm sorry for failing,
I'm sorry for everything I didn't give you that you wanted,
I'm sorry I couldn'rt help you like I promised,
I'm sorry I failed you,
I'm sorry for EVERYTHING,
And now that I lost you I can admit,
That my biggest thing I am sorry for is....
I'm sorry I gave you hope an happiness,
Then took it away!

I can see now!

I can see now......

I can see why I piss you off so easily.....

I can see why you think we will fail....

I can see why i fail you...

But its not anything about you....

I can see why if not everyone........

Most of the people in school hates me....

All this is because I'm turning into my dad....

Baby,

I'm sorry I'm turning into an ass......

I'll try to stop....

But if I fail....

You need to leave me....

Before I hurt you again!

Am I still a best friend?

Am I still a best friend?
Even though I'm no longer just a friend?
Was I ever....
Honestly your best friend?
Or did you just talk to me like i was?
Am I still a best friend?
Even though you don't........
Can't tell me everything?
Am I still a best friend?
Even if I'm overprotected....
Or overjealous?

Is there a way?

Is there not a way?
A way to make you see?
To make you see that you are.......
And always will be the ONLY girl for me?
A way to make you know that my love for you is....
UNCONDICTIONAL?
A way to make the feelings of doubt and disbelief....
That I know you have when I say it?
Is there such a way?
Please let me know....
Because I need to prove it to you!

You are........I am?

You are beautiful....
You are nice............
You are great..........
You are unbelievable...
How did I get you???
I am ugly................
I am an ass.............
I am unworthly of anything....
I am not even a good boyfriend....
So why do you keep me around???
You are smart.......
You can get a lot better.....
You deserve a lot better....
But yet you decide to stay with me......
I am stupid....
I can't find anyone better than you....
I don't deserve even the whore at the bottom of the list.......
But there is one thing I have that you don't!!!
I have the ablity to know the truth about myself like....
I know I am not great, cute, or even smart......
But I also know that as long as you are happy....
I will be too....
And I will give anything to make you happy.....
Even if that means I have to let you go......
Or die to let you make your happiness......
As long as you are happy so am I........
I LOVE YOU!!!

No matter what you say/do/think.....

I will always be here for you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always love you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always only want you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
I will always be protective toward you,
No matter what you say/do/think,
Don't you get it baby?
No matter what you say/do/think,
I WILL NEVER THINK OF YOU DIFFERENTLY!