Here It Comes....

Hey, that is right I am back again! Last time I talked about how my life was turned upside-down and then back around and then all over the place, just to let you know it is still all over the place but it is getting better which brings me to my next thing. I have never been very good at talking about heart to heart things....when they concern my heart and feelings and everyone who knows me will back me up on this...I mean when it comes to someone needed help with another issue I am ALL ears and I have been known to even give advice, or even write for them (ill post a copy at the end of this segment) but when it comes to things I want someone to know even as simple as telling them how much they mean to me has always been difficult for me to say. Which is why I am writing this...and before I go into it I just want to say I am not going to say any names! if the people I am talking about read this they will know who they are....
First I want to address you, The Fuzzy Haired Lion, I just want you to know that even through I have a habit of bugging you and no doubt frustrating you, I am glad I did not manage to push you completely away like I have many times before. I know you probably do not even understand how much you have actually help me! From everything from keeping me alive to helping me go back to the true me to thing as serious as helping remember what it is to be true to ones religion (just so the other readers, if there are any, I am a Christian and I have lost my way...quite a bit)...I want you to know that I do not believe I would still be on earth if it was not because of you...and also even though I know I am always telling you that I am going to Hell that it has been set the Lucifer actually has a room all set up for me, I want you to know that when you leave this life, I want to be the one to meet you at the Beautiful Golden Gates of Heaven's Everlasting Garden since you are one of the three (friendwise) who would be responsible for me being allowed entrance to the beautiful world of God!
Next is to no other then you, The Roommate, you are probably the main reason for me writing this...this confession. I just want you to know, even though I am almost positive you will NEVER read this but I figure if I put it out in the open maybe I will not feel the need to tell you, since I would have already told you....sort of.....now before I say this I want you to understand how big this is, for my whole life I never really had a friend I would have consider a "best" friend, in fact I always considered the idea of having one friend you could trust more then the others or one friend you would consider your relationship to be different from the others was just...why moronic. Best now that I have gotten to know you...more then I have ever expected to know anyone! I found that exact idea, realistic. You are truly my best friend which I know may not seem like the big of a deal since you are one of the few "true" friends I actually have...and just so you know I am not foolish enough to believe I am your best friend...I mean you certainly have other way more qualified then I, but I just want you to know that like with anyone...yeah that does include complete strangers I aint afraid :)...I am always here for you, even when you think I'm not...and I may surprise with how well I understand how you are feeling or struggling since I have dealt with practically everything from simple heartbreak to dealing with sins (like Lust and Envy) to suicide...I can probably guarantee you, no one knows even half of what I have made it through....by the way I know I am always saying things like "I do not what t be in the wedding of The Fuzzy Haired Lion and The Roommate, to be honest if you chose me to be in the wedding I would be thrilled to take the position, and yes that does include your best man.....
Which brings me to you, The Short One, now you are probably a mix between The Fuzzy Haired Lion and The Roommate, I know it is a strange connection. but you have helped me with practically the same amount of things and with almost the same problems as The Fuzzy Haired Lion did....you guys are actually a great team and then how you are like The Roommate? well I do not believe you truly understand how important your friendship is to me...let me just tell you if it was not because of you I would have to been long gone....maybe not dead but at very least in a long deep sleep in a hole where I would never be found.....and remember you and The Fuzzy Haired Lion and The Roommate are always first on my list if you have a problem you need to talk out....
And to everyone who cares enough to read I want you to remember I am always open to hear your thoughts and ideas...you can also ask me questions, just talk, hey I am even open to hearing your problems...if your are embarrass don't be I have heard it all from having an eating problem, to how to have sex, to my boyfriend/girlfriend broke-up with me, to my friend asked me out...I am always all ears.....here is that extra little thing I have promised in the beginning....a little background a friend who I did not mention on here was having relationship problems and as he talked I wrote this to help his girlfriend understand how he felt about her....(and just so you know, I know it is completely crap but she appreciated it):


<<< Your Love Is My >>>
Your love is my personal Diamond...
Many want it...
But only I have it...
& I wouldn't trade it....
For anything in the World...
For it is PRICELESS!

Your love is my personal Drug...
It hypnotizes me..
I lose ALL control...
& it makes me...
Want to do nothing...
But be with only you!

Your love is my personal Doctor...
It keeps my sanity in arms length...
It keeps my hope ALIVE...
It keeps my head at ease...
But most of all...
It keeps my heart beating!

Your love is my personal Spots Car...
It makes me the LUCKIEST guy alive!