For You!

You dont understand,you wont understand,
How could you when,
I dont myself,
All i know is...........
You keep me happy,
When i am mad.......
I think of you to be glad,
When i am depress.....
I think of you to become joyful,
You are my life,
I want you forever and always,
I want you by my side when i sleep,
I want your hand in mine when i walk,
I want your voice in my head when i drive,
I want your beauty in every dream.........

Death And Crying

There is no need to cry for death...
It is just a part of life...
Some die so others will live...
So as you can tell there is NO need to cry for the dead...
It is degrading...
It is wasteful...
It is stupid...
There is no need for it...

Death

Death waits for no one!!!
Death will come for those who doesn't want him!!!
Death comes for those who fear him!!!
There is no escape from Death!!!
So you should just lay back and wait for him to come for you!!!
What you say join me in the wait???

W.I.L.L.I.S

Willis
Is a
Lazy
Loser
In
Socks

Needle Plus Fire

Needle + Fire= FUN
Needle + Fire= BLOOD
Needle + Fire= PAIN
Needle + Fire= HATE

Your Beauty

In my dreams i see you,
In school i see you
In the store i see you
In the town i see you
Why can i not get away???
When i close my eyes i see you
Why do you haunt me with your beauty???
Why do i see you every where i go???
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
GET OUT OF IT!!!
GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!
Stop haunting my every awaking move!!!
BUT;
Everytime i see you smile i forget my problems
Everytime you talk i get lost
Everytime i think of you i get happy
Everytime you are sad i fell helpless
Everytime your mad i get frustrated
Why do i fell like this???
Why can't i find myself away from you???

Why???

Why am i still alive???
All i do is cause pain to those around!!!
Why can't i leave this life???
It is all WE need to get through!!!
Why do i have to live through this HELLhole we can a life???
This world would be a better place!!!
Why are my cuts not deep enough to cause pain???
It would let all my pain go!!!
Why does it have to be so FUCKING boring & sucky.

Stereotype

What is a Prep???
A prep is anyone or anything
That thinks they are
Better than anyone else!!!
What is a poser???
A poser is someone
Who acts like someone
They are not to impress
Someone else!!!
What is an emo???
An emo is someone who
Is overly emotional
Altrough most can hide it pretty well.

My Purpose

Every cut is slow & painful
Every pill is tasty & addicting
Every rope is forcefull & strong
Everythings ends in death
So why not make my now???
If,
Everybody got a reason,
Then what is my???
Why,
Don't i take my life now
As i write???
What,
Is my purpose in this
SHITTY world???
Do,
I have the power to
End all my pain
&
Misery???
Do,
I have a purpose???
YES,
I do, my purpose is 2
Help others when i can't
Even help myself.

Would You.....

Would you cry if i committed suicide???
Would you care if i died???
What would you do if i became seriously ill???
DON'T LIE!!!
I know the truth you wouldn't cry,
You'll be happy!!!
You won't cry if i died,
You'll throw a party
Don't try in ingore the truth,
Because it will come back to haunt you,
Until the day you die!!!!

The Truth!!!

Everyone around me believe they have the worst life...
But little do they know the TRUTH!!!
They don't know EVRYthing i have done...
Little do they know or care about the pain i been through...
They have no ideal how close to death i had came...
They know i don't cry but what they don't know is that it isn't because i don't want to but because i CAN'T!!!
They don't know what i have lived through...
THEY ARE ALL SELFISH!!!
They think about their selfs and their problems...
They act like life is a game that they are losing...
But they don't know i have already lost...
After all of this it is leaving me asking wh y???
Why me???
Why are they so FUCKING selfish...
Why don't they care to talk to me or even ask what the HELL is wrong with me???
I should end it all with one last cut but
If i end will all those i care about????

Cut!!!

Some cut for fun
Some cut for blood
Some cut for tears
Some cut the pain
Some cut to end it all
I cut for them all
Plus more!!!

Do You Not See???

Do you not see how much i love you??????

Do you not see how important you are to me??????

Do you not see how much i want to be with you????

Because if i didn't i wouldn't try so hard to make you see it......

See how much i love you......

How much i care....

How important you are to me......

The Best Day Of My Life!!!!

I am thinking....................

Thinking about the day my life switch from the hellish nightmare

To the heavenly dream

The day i gained a lot

But lost very little

The day i admitted not only to myself

But also to GOD that i haven't gave up just yet that i do have a little speck of hope

The day that my life came from depressing

To joyful

What day is this????

The day is January 22, 2009

The day we become an us!!!