Done.

I'm always second best

Never able to hold up to the rest

Even on days to celebrate me

I am throw thrown out as debris

I'm always put on the sideline

Never saw as the headline

Even on days focused on me

I'll never have the certain degree

I'm always forgotten

Never to be cemented

Even on days I am present

I'm held at a distance

I'll have my thoughts said

But always left on read

No matter the alert

I'll always be irrelevant

I'm done being hurt

I'm done being on the outskirt

They Say

They say you're wanted

But then leave you ghosted 

They say they care

But then provide a deaf ear

They let you provide

But throw you aside

They calm to be family

But will always leave

They say they have your back

But only if it's on their track

They offer you a team

But leave you out of the dream

They make all these promises

But leave you feeling like a carcass.

Unnecessarily Here

Feeling quite pointless

Like a number 2 pencil

Sitting in a case of pens

Straight outta the box

Being quite useless

Like a pink eraser

Sitting on the desk

Of a computer engineer

Sitting here watching

How everyone is searched for 

Sitting here hearing 

How everyone is called for

Waiting for my turn

To be found

Waiting for my chance

To be asked

Being quite invisible

Like the wind

Blowing through the desert

On a hot summer day

Being quite unwanted

Like a steakhouse

Opened 24/7

On a street of vegan stores

Sitting here watching

How everyone is searched for 

Sitting here hearing 

How everyone is called for

Waiting for my turn

To be found

Waiting for my chance

To be asked

I Drink

I drink to forget all the pain you caused

I drink to remember the joy that could be

I drink to be blinded to things that did

I drink to see the things that will

I drink grow deaf from your lies

I drink to hear the world's truth 

I drink to undo all the wrongs

I drink to start things right

I drink to end the man I am

I drink to be the man I AM

My 30 Second Testimony

I was deep down the hole

Filled out the darkness of depression.

I was drowning in the ocean

Filled with the waters of anxiety.

Until I found and accepted you

Filled with love and peace.

Your light shined through

Shining through the darkness.

Your cloth covered me

Soaking up the waters.

Though I may stumble and fall

Back into the darkness and waves.

You are always there to pull me

To the shallow waters.

You are always there to light the path

Out of the bottomless pit.

Surrendering All

Driving the highway

Of the world

Ignoring the billboards

Of hope and peace.

Taking the twists & turns

Unable to slow down

Running all the destruction

From decisions I have made.

The pavement ends

Dropping into a deep pit

Powerless to stop

I call out for help.

Searching for any ledges

Sturdy enough to bear

All my failures and flaws

To no avail

Free falling into the depths

Of a bottomless hole

Thinking back to signs

I turned my back to.

Praying out to you

Who pursued me

Surrendering all to you

I am yours.

What's The Point?

What's the point?

When everyone questions?

When everyone argues?

When everyone dismisses?

What's the point..

Of answering?

Of taking that initiative?

Of being present?

What's the point? 

When everything changes?

When everything is lost?

When everything is in dismay?

What's the point..

Of prepping?

Of searching?

Of repairing?

What's the point?

When I lost all hope?

When I feel numb?

When I am unnecessary?

What's the point...

Of dreaming?

Of caring?

Of providing?

What's the point in all this?

When all I want to do is give in?

Give into the welcoming arms of death?

Finally able to mutter the words...

I am done!