So, here's the thing...every year I go through this same thing year after year....about this time I always have these grand plans of improving my life. But that's just it all I am are plans it's like the saying "all bark but no bite" that's what I am. Every sense I was kid I wanted to change the world I wanted to make it a better place for the woman I choose to live my entire life with for the children I help bring into this world....I wanted to be the son that parents would be proud and happy to say was theirs the nephew, cousin, brother, uncle, and friend that not only will someone...everyone would be proud of but will remember me for years after I'm gone. But here I am 23 years into my life and I got nothing to show for it. Yes, I graduated high school and I obtained my degree in 3.5 years but that's all. I still work at McDonald's and still live in a tiny apartment, I am still alone...I am still terrify of being alone forever with no one to spend the light moments with and no one to spend the dark moments with...not so much as a best friend who know everything about me...and I can share everything with, without the fear of them leaving me or even worse me leaving them.....the fear of loneliness and worthlessness are the worst things anyone can ever feel....
So , this is it...this is my entry for 2015...maybe just maybe 2016 will truly be a NEW year......
